A New Start

February 3rd and I am just doing my first Zumba workout. I didn't actually make it through the entire workout. I had to stop 16 minutes in because my legs were hurting SO bad, in an even different way than they hurt when I run too much. On a brighter note, that's not the first time Zumba has kicked my ass and I'm sure it won't be the last. I am hoping to finish an entire workout tomorrow morning. 

I have a full morning planned for tomorrow. I have to wake up and get the kids ready for school and pack their lunches. I have to drop them off at school and then drive to work. Not because I actually have to work, but because I have to talk to my boss. You see, I am doing something I have never done before. I am handing in my two week notice and I am really nervous as to how it's going to go. I have had the same job for 15 years and the same boss for 13 of those years. I know that I am making a good decision, but I am going to miss most of my co-workers. It's really hard to leave when you have so many good relationships with so many people. These are people that I vent to when I am sad, mad and frustrated. They are people who understand me when no one else seems to. They joke with me, they cry with me and they RUN with me. I wish I could take them with me. (And believe me, I will try). Everyone keeps saying that I am making a good choice and that I have to do these things for me. While half of me believes that it's true, the other half is begging me not to do this. I hate goodbyes and I hate that feeling that sometimes friendships, even with the best intentions, drift and fade and I don't want that!!

So, with a heavy and anxious heart, I will head off to do that tomorrow and then I will go to the grocery store and pick up the kids and do all those things I normally do on Mondays, plus a Zumba workout.